Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Monday, October 26, 2009
"There's been time,
I'm so confused.
And all my roads,
Well,they lead to you.
I just can't turn and walk away...
It's hard to say what it is,
I see in you.
Wonder if i'll always be with you.
Words can't say it,
I can't do,
Enough to prove,
It's all for you."
Sunday, October 25, 2009
one stands out
bright red and broken
that was mine
i thought without doubt
the most beautiful and elegant of all the others
ill lay with you and keep you by my side forever
through the summer heat
and the winter cold
the snow will cover, yet we'll never grow old
the love will stand strong
for all the time we spent
the good times stand bold
one day i hope you realize
but you're just a book
in my real life i wished you were alive
Saturday, October 24, 2009
we want to kill ourselves instead. think about it, if we really, really understood why we do most of the things
we do we would probably hate ourselves.
i believe that hovering over all of mankind is a bubble of knowledge, anything you can possibly think of. but we only get so much out of it, what we decide to listen to in school, what we decide to learn on our own and what i believe we were automatically given. i think this explains why you can react to something in a certain way, the same way to 3-60 different people would if they were asked the same question or put in the same scenario and 98% of them will react the same way, because i feel we are all programed that way.
Friday, October 23, 2009
"your voice was the soundtrack of my summer,
do you know you're unlike any other? you'll always be my thunder.
i said, your eyes are the brightest of all the colors.
i don't wanna ever love another, you'll always be my thunder..." blg
"It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems" oc
Thursday, October 22, 2009
i'm tired of living in the past, whats done is done
and now im ready to move forward from today and on.
i've made my fair share of mistakes, we all have, i've realized that i can't make
those anymore and i now know that i want what i've been thinking about
for weeks now.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Monday, October 19, 2009
Friday, October 16, 2009
i hate you all
no mood for fun
i in no way want to leave my house
the love that was felt is now shattered
burned into ash to only blow into the wind
into the wind and out into nature
to let it takes it own path
a path and new life of its own
but i hate to see it go
for now i can't stand to watch it reach a new friend
every step taken is a regret and promise, now i see and i sob, i'd rather waste all my time at a job than to see what you're always up to with him.
see me here
ill see you there
my chest will shatter inside
you smile as you walk by
fingers linked with his
as my mind explodes into pieces
complement here, complements there
you love them all
but from me you'd never hear
even though there's so much i felt
i couldn't say
but now i can without any help
yet he beat me to it
always so nice
always so sweet
as i walked out he walked in
loss of air proceeding to trip on my own feet
just know you meant so much
and you still do
and the way the puzzle is fitting
for a long time to come
i now feel that....we're done....
you, my son are now king
father, for i am not ready to be king
my son it is you're time
for i am ready for you to be king
father maybe in the near future,
but now i am still yet a child
i cannot take on such responsibility
yes my son?
father i am now ready to become king,
to follow in your footsteps
my son you see, you are too late.
father what do you mean?
my son, i don't know how to say this..
you see, i asked you a whiles back
because the opportunity was available
and i felt you were ready, but you denied
but father, please i am now ready,
i had to prepare and think
about how this is what i am meant to be
i don't know how to put this,
but i couldn't go on myself to do the job...
so i.....i chose charles
maybe next time my son, maybe
maybe next time you ill speak up sooner.
Thursday, October 15, 2009
few weeks later chance was gone
few days ago now too late
guess i thought the chance would always last
seeing the change
feeling the pain
confused and distraught
so tough and cool, or so was thought
now it's my turn
and now it's his turn
mine to wait
his to have
to go as planned
hard to believe
see you in months most likely
for he wins in a battle when put against me
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Friday, October 9, 2009
i'd walk the same roads.
i'd walk them so often i knew them forwards and back,
when to stop, when to turn.
i knew their feelings, interests and secrets not many knew.
but now i don't take that road. now i feel as if i lost all those secrets,
and if i tried to walk it blind folded i would only trip, receiving no help.
because now i am not wanted in these parts, this road has found new company.
to my old path i am just a stranger now, strange feet walking across its so familiar pavement.
but at the same time, i feel awkward like a silence between friends.
Thursday, October 8, 2009
how you say it will affect how they take it and the outcome of your situation.
i myself can more likely find the right thing to say for someone elses situation
before my own.
i never know what to say....well not never, sometimes i do, but when it really matters
most, i never know.
this got the worst of me not too long ago.
think over your words
before you think you have the nerve
what you think is right
might be wrong
if you want something good
be sure your words are strong