Gotta try.....

to get all happy

start a new look on things

and stop giving a shit

Lies...

This isn’t how

It has to be

You made me cry

Causing screams

It’d be best

To be happy

I took it all

And waited long

Now please don’t lie

Don’t lie at fault

I saw the words

I heard the scene

But you don’t like

For it to be

Just you and me

 

And now I lay

Confused inside

Day and night

I feel the lies

Was it true

What you told me

Or was it all

Out of sympathy

Or just

A bit of jealousy

If it was

Then say goodbye

For I can’t stand

No more lies

 

You my dear

Is what I want

A trusted girl

Now don’t get lost

In changing drinks

The alcohol

Keep the same

Remember me

I hear your touch

And see the words

It hurts me so

I have to go

Can’t be here now

To watch you set it down

And walk away

With him right now

I guess it’s done

And there you go

Goodbye my dear

Ill see you soon

Your beauty drips in tears

Locked....

stored away in a cage

locked up tight

ill try to never bring it out

not in your sight

because you wouldn't understand

like an experiment gone bad

this page is where it can expand

stretch its legs and go for a walk

down to the coffee shop

with the waitress a little talk

then back home it goes

back to its cage

for i can't bring it out

it will be the cause

the cause for rage

FUCK.....

so much on our minds

so much we can't divide

to get smaller portions

so we can realize

what's really going on

so you can get a clue

that it's not because of me

it's because of you

because you can't realize

because you don't see

you can't fucking see

how much you really mean to me

maybe you'll never know

even if you're told

you're mentally gone

and can't make up your mind

just tell me the truth

don't tell another lie

Mid-Chapters..

 

I’m always mad

I’m always sad

Bipolar….maybe

Pass a cigarette or at least a drag

I need to clear my head from all this mess

Every weeks the same

Im oh so happy, then you act lame

You drop the downer in my drink

For the rest of the night to sob and think

 

 

These are the part of the worst I will tell when grown

To the little ones who I want to hear

The sadness will eat to their bones

But for me

It has already rotted my brain

Through my skull it sank

Because it runs in my vains

I can be happy yes

And happy stories I have

But at this very moment

I am very sad

Pillow Fight...

As lonely as the sea

The sea in a winter’s breeze

No one sailing along

Cruise ships long gone

No sign of company in sight

Not yesterday

Not tonight

A feeling of one yet lost

No words of wisdom

Or at least I thought

So with that said

Its time for sleep

Alone in bed

Ever so weak

it's all on the back cover...

You’re finally opening up

Like a book

With blank pages in the middle

The ones you still leave undiscussed

I still feel for you

Like I did when we first met

Eyes blue as the sky

A smile as sweet as an island sunset

Why its like this I may never know

But ill be here waiting

And you’ll still say no

 

Why I wait is something I can’t figure out

You act so selfish

Filling my head with doubt

You never seem to impress me

Does it hurt you to hear that?

Cause it hurts me to say it

But it’s okay with you

Because you don’t give a shit

Your heads fucked up because you’re scared

You wont admit it

But I’m well aware

 

So contact me sometime

On a more serious note

Maybe we can talk

And if things work out

Then we’ll joke

But until then all I wanna know is

Why couldn’t you call?

Jealous...

it burns like fire

the presence you bring

my jealousy excels

causing my mind to think

how much better you might be

much better, better than me

friends we are

people i see

they like you more

so slick, so clean

then there's just me

just me alone over there

you don't look dumb anywhere

since the opposite likes you

i try

but there's nothing more to do

should i..

post up poems? tell me

quote of the moment..

there's not alot for you to give if you're giving in

there's not alot for you to feel if you're not feeling it

woo

fuck my life

Like i said....

you never seem to impress me

there's...

not alot to feel

if you're not feeling it.

llac tnow uoy